Introspection!

I just have a pep talk with my ate and business partner. Issues, concerns and even differences were discussed. I come to a conclusion. I need to contemplate about myself.

So many things that has been juggling around, some are messing and some are falling apart and some are hurting!

So bad that I didn’t admit that I am a mess, I juggled much and mix it up. How many times the things I engaged with rattled and puzzled, entangled from left to right and above and below.

I even can’t assess whichever should be solved first. I guess I need to have a soul search. A deep examination of the things that had been happening! It’s a constant struggle. It’s a thing that needs to be contemplated and listened.

Until when will I have these mixed emotions?

I guess I need introspection!

I need to go out to the place where peace of mind, heart and soul is achieve!

Where will it be?
Can you be of help?


It’s Time!

Your world is telling you

Your body is telling you

Your heart is telling you

Your Soul Whispers are revealing

It’s Time!

~ Lazaris & Oneheart ~

Feeling Alone…

I felt sweat kept pouring out from my forehead to my body. It’s cold. I can hardly breathe. I feel nothing from my extremities. I need to sit down so that the oxygen could rush back to my lungs and breathe an air.

But I was all alone. I have no one to call for help. I needed a back up someone that could catch me if I fall.

I felt nothing now.

I just want to figure out as if there is an empty space inside that needs to be occupied where I could feel warmth and passionate loyalty.

Whom can I call for help now?

Master TAbs

Onward to the battle, no retreat no surrender.

This is the line that reverberated to my ears almost a score ago. He stood up in the flat form in front of 3,000 young hopefuls. He raised his name before his batch mates and classmates because he believes in that saying. Who could have forgotten the face that challenged his younger brothers and sisters that despite the odds he went through, we never quit but rather always face up to onward on his life’s battle.

He was raised up alone by his father, Generoso Zapanta Tablada for his mother (Rosalia Guzmana Capilitan) died when he was seven. Being the youngest, he the apple of the family. His brothers Rosuell and Wendell were fond of him. His father, being devoted to his family, did not think of remarrying again rather brought them up with his firm arms.

He was motivated to reach his dreams taking aside that he received the highest award both in elementary (Union Elementary School in Union Bontoc Southern Leyte Philippines last 1990) and secondary (Sisters of Mary School Boystown and Girlstown in J.P. Rizal Street, Talisay, Cebu Philippines in 1994) courses. In addition too, he received a grade of 99+ in his National College Entrance Examination (NCEE). These achievements pave a new path in his tertiary course. He is a recipient of two of the prestigious scholarship DOST-SEI and PESFA and even graduated Cum Laude with the degree of BS Computer Engineering at University of San Carlos – Technological Center in Nasipit Talamban Cebu City Philippines last 1999.

What else this man had in his heart and mind?

A will to inspire young mind.

After his graduation in college, he worked as a part time instructor at the computer science/engineering department of AMA Computer College – Cebu Campus. And while working, he pursued with my Masters degree studies which lead him to another degree of Master of Science in Management Engineering at University of San Jose Recoletos, Cebu City Philippines. His thesis/study become an innovation in his time which give a further commendation entitled: “LAN of Cebu Doctors University: Bases for network re engineering and policy re infrastructure”. And that he joined the University of San Carlos – Technological Center at Computer Engineering Department teaching force to teach major subjects for 4th and 5th year engineering students.

With a head up high to his aim, in spite of these all he still wants to further his knowledge and that he joined one of the leading companies, Lexmark Research and Development Corp. in Cebu Business Park, Cebu City Philippines as Senior Network Firmware Engineer (Team Lead).

He becomes a master of his craft as we call him but with feet flat on the ground. He is an inspiration one should call.

In August 2007, he married to the most beautiful wife in the world (Sherilyn Espinosa Butaslac) and blessed with a lovely and healthy boy child (Reece Scot B. Tablada). They become the happy family one should look upon.

But he never stop exploring the every possibility of success, when the opportunity knocks, he grabbed it. Last April 2008, after he resigned at Lexmark R&D, together with his wife and son, had migrated to Australia under the General Skilled Immigrant VISA. Currently, he is working as Senior Systems Network Engineer at Dezitec Australia located in the city of Sydney.

His more than 10 years career in IT/engineering gained him a number of achievements both international and local. Among them as follows:

International Certification:

Cisco Certifed Network Associate (CCNA)
Cisco Certified Academy Instructor (CCAI)
Microsoft Certified Professional (MCP)
D-Link Certified Network Engineer (DCNE-2008)

Other Achievements:

• Became the Cisco Main Contact of AMA
• Became the Chairperson of Computer Engineering at AMA
• Cisco Networking Academy Global Online Recognition Award – Asia Pacific
• Cisco Philippine Instructor of the Year 2004 (MIT Quezon City Philippines)
• Champion in the “First I.T. Cebu Inter-University QUIZ BEE” sponsored by NEC
Software Telecom Phils Inc., held at NEC and Cebu Ayala Activity Center Philippines (2001)
• JUDGE during “1st AMA IT Olympiad – Regional” 2002 (Grand Convention Hotel)

And being a professional, he affiliated in a number of organizations which include the following:
• 2002 – 2004 Adviser : AMA Computer Engineering Society (ACES) Cebu City 6000 Philippines
• 1994 – Present Member : DOST SA USC & DOST SA CEBU
Department of Science and Technology–SEI (DOST-SEI Scholars’ Organization)
• 1995 – Present Member : FOCOLARE (International Religious Organization)
• 1994 – Present Webmaster: Alumni of the Sisters of Mary School Inc. - Cebu
http://sms-cebu.org
• 1994 – 1999 Member : Batch 1999 USC Computer Engineering Council
University of San Carlos, Cebu City 6000 Philippines

These affiliations had boasted him as a professional and as a person.

Now, despite the distance he never ceased to inspire just like before. He still coaches, mentors and teaches us. As our navigator and master soldier he equipped us with the inspiration of his story.

We are proud of him, our master, webmaster Reynaldo Tabz, born last May 7, 1977 at Union Bontoc Southern Leyte, Philippines.

Thank you for your constant inspiration.

Indifference….!

I know you are acting indifferently now: smiling yet with a twist of sarcasm, moving yet with heaviness on your feet, seeing with an out ball straight to nowhere?

I know it’s your way of handling the tension. It’s your way of making yourself cool. Was it gait or a mere stage show?

Jesus in the bible said “ I will have you HOT or COLD but lukewarm, I will vomit you out from my mouth.

I would not argue to this because I want to be honest to what I feel. There’s no more telling that I care because it might be venom that would poison my system. Rather feel the heat of the situation and be sensitive.

It’s you not me..

Keep your guard!

HOW MUCH HURT WILL CAUSE SOMEONE TO BE A MONSTER?

If a person is hurting now, how much hut will he bear to endure it?

How much hurt will cause him to still have his sanity?

How much hurt will cause him to be a monster?

Hurt is said to be the adverse effect of mistrust. When one is accused of something you have not done, you will be hurt. And when you will be face to see the consequences of keeping a secret, will you hurt the one who confides you or tell the truth to the third party? When confronted with a situation, we have choices to lead, whether or and not. The fact still remain, someone will be hurt.

When pride and prejudice comes in between both party is hurt. Now, how much hurt will cause someone to be a monster? Will you allow it to wrap your person or rather reach for a hand to change the perspective?

No matter how hurting it is,

face it,

because it what makes you up

a better person!

“ Ang tao kahit di sinasadya, nakakasakit ka pa rin ng tao..” Sa sitwasyong ito, puso pa rin ang nakakalam kung ano ang tama o mali.

HOW LONG WILL YOUTRUST A FRIEND???

I am hurting now for the betrayal of a dear friend. The question that keeps on pounding my mind at the moment is the fact that the friendship is traded with selfish interest. I am of no saint that could not commit a single mistake but I would not betray a friend in lieu of a silver coin.

In the bible, the best portrait of betrayal is the friendship between Judas and Jesus. Although repentant comes next but you could no longer regain the lost trust in 100 percent. Sad to note that Judas hung himself knowing the consequences of his action but it was too late. No matter how grave is his effort to regain the earlier action but it was of no use. Jesus is then directed to face trial of the sins he never committed.

I value the friendship to the best I could. I don’t know what poison it has to envelop me with such betrayal. I have done a thousand mistakes but never did I traded and intruded a friendship with a Judas’ kiss. This is what hurt me most. But let not this betrayal be the reasons to burn bridges rather a reason to reflect if you are really a friend. Words might be hurting, but what hurt most is the action left unsaid at your back.

Now, how long will trust a friend?

For me, I will still trust a friend.
Because for me
a friend…
is like a lover who tickles your emotions;
is like a brother who defends you against your enemies;
is like a mother who soothe you when you are in distress;
and like a father who scolds you when you are wrong
but neither hit you at your back.

Are you a friend that is worth to be trusted?